Daniel i was lying in bed with paige this evening, talking about what we miss, not having you here. Paige was telling me she misses, your cuddles, you kisses, you squirting water through you teeth, me telling u off, & u still doing it behind my back, you making the pack lunches, and when she goes to eat it, there being little bits of tabbocc on her bread? Oooo also i have a bone to pick with you, paige tells me that what she misses the most is the Funny face u pulled at me, when my back was turned, when i had been moaning!! Thanks Fred!! She said that if she could have you back just for 1 hour, that she wants you to jump in the bath again with all your clothes on, while im trying to wash my hair, and for you to read her the lion king. She then turns to me and says mummy i love you & daddy so much, but im gonna stop talking about him now and get to sleep, because i dont like it when you cry, she wiped the tears from my eye, says mummy when u feel sad u should think what daddy did that made u laugh, cos thats what i do. Daniel when did our little girl grow up so quickly. i just hope that you can see, & be proud of her and keep her safe. Well as for louie, he still thinks that he can make a rocket to come and see you, maybe one day, eh daniel! and i know when hes missing you, cos he ask if he can look for you star in the sky. Daniel i sit and remember everything that we have done, been through, i sit & look at photo, and they make me laugh, but i miss you like crazy & thats what hurts the most, and i cant imagine this pain ever going away, because the longer your gone, the more i miss you & the more it hurts, but you know what fred all this pain would be worth it, if i knew you was up there watching over us all, and you was happy. xXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXx